Come on ! That's not funny anymore now.

I'm tired. Exhausted. Please, don't mention I had two weeks of holidays or I'm going to burst into tears. Tomorrow I've my English khôlle. To work on it, I've read the main actuality of the week (in one word, of course : "OBAMA"), read some papers I had from the US embassy, and found why the democrats' symbol is a donkey. I even watched some series to be prepared to think in English on tomorrow afternoon (I hope series are like starchy food and work the day after you take it). I think it kind of worked, but please, forgive my mistakes : I'm far from being bilingual. Anyway : I've tried to be prepared, but I'm not. This khôlle is the only one that frightened me. Really. History is quite dreadful as well when our teacher is in a bad mood or when he decides to be though with us, but I feel more afraid by English (hey, guess what my next khôlle is after English ? You're right : History !)

First, if I love the language, I'm bad at political analysis. Even more in US political analysis. Then, a tiny little hour to do an entire summary plus commentary is ridiculous : we can't do a proper job, with profound analysis and problematic gist in a single hour. Or at least I can't. I'm not ready to do this. I can't improvise only with verb structures and pieces of sentences. That's beyond what I'm able to do on subjects I don't control.

This post is useless : I can't do anything but go on my khôlle tomorrow, wait and see. I know that, I'm not completely stupid. But I'm really scared and anxious.

I hope your eyes are not bleeding yet. I just wanted to express my feelings in a language that is more... me. I love speaking English. But I'm sorry if I made many mistakes.


Have a nice last night before an awful period of dark days, exams, rain and cold weather.